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I’m really trying…

I’m trying to be happy here. I really am.

I love California. I love my job.

I love Santa Monica. I love this place.

But I can’t help but feel sad.

Sad that I’m not near my friends or family.

Sad that I still don’t have furniture and have been living like a homeless person for about 3 weeks.

Sad that I can’t enjoy myself because I’m not fully settled in yet.

I wish things would just fall into place and then I can really start to live here and be happy here.

I wish my brother would answer his phone so I can talk to him because I’m sad and I know he’ll make me feel better.

I wish my mom would stop telling me she’s sorry, there’s nothing any of us can do. Every time she says the word sorry I just start crying.

I just wish I wasn’t sad for once since I’ve been here.

I wanna love it here. Love it more than home in NJ. Love it more than Boston.

Let’s hope I can stop crying for a little while.

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